It’s mad because on the 30th of June 2016 I attended an appointment at the breast clinic and yesterday on 24th June 2021 I found myself back there. I found a lump on my left breast last week. I ignored it for 2 days thinking it would go away but on the 3rd day I went and saw my doctor who confirmed my fear and fast tracked me an appointment at the breast clinic.
The difference between then and now was last time I knew deep down in my heart that I was OK. This time I had to fight my fears. It may not seem long but for that whole time I was scared and battling the thought that it could be cancer. I tried to hide it deep inside when probably I should of just admitted my true feelings to myself and dealt with them.
However, what I found strange about the whole experience was the loneliness I felt (even though I’m surrounded by so much love and support). There is only one other time when I felt like that and that was when my daughter was born with complications. When I arrived at the clinic I cried because I didn’t want to be going through everything alone. I wanted someone there for me to share my tears with. Someone to reassure me that no matter what they would be there for me. I never expected to feel that way because general I’m very strong and independent. I must say all the staff at Basildon hospital were amazing and made me feel at ease and the relief I felt when leaving knowing I had the all clear was immense.
The main reason that I’m sharing this is to raise awareness and get my fellow Queen’s to get checking those breasts. If you feel anything unusual go and get it checked out by you doctor. Most cases of breast cancer are detected when women notice unusual changes to their breasts. There are plenty of videos on YouTube showing you how to check them and it literally only takes a couple of minutes. It’s best to be precautious as breast cancer is the most common cancer in women!
And finally, can I add how ironic it is that I wore pink to my appointment. I didn’t even realise until I was driving home. It must of been a subconscious thing.
This was written with a grateful heart ❤ Louise Pierre
I am so truly sorry you felt alone babe. It literally makes me cry.
I am sorry that I wasn’t there in the way you needed me to be.
Thank you for sharing and always know that I love you very much and you can ALWAYS call on me 24/7 365 (366 on a leap year!)
P.s don’t sell yourself short you are stronger than you’ll ever give yourself credit for!
OMG I’ve only just seen this. Now you made me cry. Love and appreciate you so much ❤